What do you do when you think you’re close to falling out of love?
Sometimes I think that I’m the happiest girl in the world and I could never be happier. But then there are the days where I question anything and everything. It just feels routine now and I want things to be spontaneous like it was when we first fell in love.
I wish I could be out having a good time but I feel so restricted. I want to drink, smoke, and be experimental like I’m supposed to be in my college days. I just feel like I’m missing out on things that I shouldn’t be missing out on. I know life isn’t about partying, but it’s the restriction that bothers me. What if I want to smoke some weed or drink alcohol? At least I don’t lie and sneak about it like some girls do. I don’t do it, because I don’t want to fess up to it when it could ruin a relationship.
I’m sick of living a boring life. Starting tomorrow I’ll be a new Me. I’ll be the me I want to be. I’ll be healthy, I’ll work hard in my classes, I’ll become involved in my community, I’ll do what I want, I’ll be honest, I’ll paint, I’ll do what it takes to fix my relationship, I’ll protest. I’m excited. I’ll also start a bucket list!
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